diaper hindsight

I'm dealing with a bit of diaper remorse right now.  Omega had a really bad diaper rash--we actually ended up buying a box of disposables once it progressed into some open sores.  And I discovered that I hate, hate, hate disposable diapers--the smell, the crinkly-ness, the smell.  Not to mention the squishy feeling they get when they are soaked--or the way I leave them on for longer than I should, so I can get the most for my money.  But with cloth diapers, I couldn't use my normal remedy of butt paste.  And I needed something for the poor, little guy right now--not in 3-4 days.  Arg.

So, after a full week of disposables (I'm sure my mom thanked me), he's finally healed up.  No more open sores--patches that are obviously new skin, but no more open sores.  And I'm soooo glad to have him back in cloth.

But, I'm a little mad too.  When I first started diapering, I was using prefolds and covers and there was nothing going wrong.  Then I decided to switch things up and started using pocket diapers.  And I passed on all my covers and prefolds.  Now I'm wishing that I had them back--everything was so much simpler then.  I've even gone so far as to look into getting some more prefolds and covers--just the bare minimum.  But I'd be looking at about $20 per dozen prefolds and $13 per cover. 

I think the hard part is that in my head I'm an all-or-nothing kind of person.  I want to be all pockets or all prefolds/covers.  And on some level I feel like I've already done the prefolds/covers and moved away from them--what's to keep me from moving away from them again?  Arg.  I hate my indecisiveness.